|I wanted to introduce this post with an image of Tiamat, but the most common pictures of her are not in line with her description. Instead here's one of Arsu, a previous avatar of the daemon now known as Paimon(ia). Image from Yale University, by Wikimedia Commons.|
by Amethyst Black
This is a very strange article, and will probably end up reading like a ramble. Here's what happened--I began writing about Tiamat, when Paimonia stepped in--she began channeling her message to me as I wrote. What happened from there was that the proverbial sh*t hit the fan; to summarize, Paimonia's "additional words of wisdom and insight," became the bulk of the article (because of the length!). There was no clear way to include said insight yet still have the post focus upon Tiamat, and no way I could think of to make it primarily about Tiamat yet also largely about Paimonia... yet maybe I can. That it'll be given my best shot, is all that can be promised.
I wish to point out, that this is the third consecutive post on this site which references Paimonia/Paimon. This was NOT by intent, it is a simple "thing that happened." Though I have much respect for Paimonia, I'd much rather have had things broken up a bit, but also sense there's reason for this. With all of that said, here we go...
I have long had Tiamat on a back-burner in my magickal mind--which is to say that though I hold her in high regard as potentially the first, or a face of the first, universal emission in goddess form (hence the first emission in any form), I have not done any significant degree of work with her. At the same time I am familiar with her history within mythology, and am aware of those she is syncretic with (Nuit/Isis, Thalassa, Durga, Ymir, Chaos, and so on), including some of her non primordial goddess avatars (Leviathan [who is primordial, but not necessarily a goddess], and as you'll soon see, Paimonia, inclusive). Given that Tiamat is the essence and indeed the mother of all goddesses, all goddesses in some way are aligned with her.
Not all of those she aligns with are female, which makes perfect sense. Let's use the Egyptian deity Nuit as an example; this as her story is popularly known. Nuit is the everything and the potentiality for everything--literally EVERY THING. Hence within her lies the potentiality for the male to arise--he cannot originate from anywhere else. Some would say, well God is male and he created her, so there's that. However, that's a Abrahamic myth, and given that everything in this universe is dichotomous and also given that God is ineffable, nope. God is not male. Whatever God might be, it had to break itself into bits in order to allow for creation.
From the aforesaid: though as a concept Tiamat is depicted as female and given that her energies give birth and all, it's a bit confusing that she is male as well, but she is. To be clear, she is androgynous, but is also the male and female aspects of creation as one, and her male and female aspects can be self standing as well. We look at Paimon/Paimonia as an example of this (being perceptibly androgynous)--she recently identified herself as having being borne from Tiamat's stream, and from the very fact that was mentioned we can assume that she strongly identifies with Tiamat.
For those who see Paimon as male, he has been quoted as saying that the reason he appears effeminate, is because he (paraphrased) "demonstrates respect to the goddess." Though I am not one to say--"hence obviously Tiamat is the goddess he's referring to,"--just maybe she is. Yet on the other hand he may be referring to any or all goddesses (I did not ask, and it seems rather unimportant). Common sense suggests Paimon would be referring to a goddess more primeval than himself; yet even this is contestable. What if it is a reference to themself in earlier mythology? because it is well known that Paimon was Arsu, back when Azazel was Aziz beside them.
A side note on that some see Paimon as female and the bulk see them as male. I never did ask why that is, but on another level it seems clear to me. They are as genderless as an angel, and I believe that in fact all demons are as genderless as well. However, some see powerful beings as being more male, some see them as female; and though that's unlikely the entirety of the matter, it's significant. It seems that at my core and within my own journey, I CHOSE to see Paimonia as female, and they are good with being Queen Paimonia--to me.
You know, I did ask about another matter relative to people perceiving things differently than each other--why one person's answers from a given daemon differ from those given to others. Paimonia: "It's because they are at different places within their journey, combined with the requirement for mysteries to be maintained in order for life lessons to unfold as they should. It's from the difference in perspective as they filter their respective messages. It's from the difference in the way they understand, appreciate, and use words. It's from comprehension of the gravity and foundation of the answers given them. It's from the way that one will take an answer given as being serious and grave, while another will dismiss an element of it as being out of line with their beliefs or as being superfluous... tossed aside like garbage.
It's due to that power is pulled from many sources, including the messages one delivers to others, which in turn makes an impression on the words and concepts I offer, and either renders them freely and rather unaffectedly, or does affect them. I cannot say twists and contorts, as if I put a concept out I also know the person's way of interpreting; so all is done by intent, you see? Even lessons misunderstood, were meant to teach whichever lesson they do. Nothing is accidental. The mysteries are a part of this...
When the entire truth cannot be told and details cannot be explained, partial truth must be delivered. Whole truths also cannot be delivered without due place within one's journey. Who has read a book and knew the ending? ...unless someone told them beforehand and ruined a perfectly good book, and the experience of living its story along with the characters of it. There is sadness in not knowing the truth. But you are sent into your respective life knowing that things will be kept from you to encourage you to be the highest aspect of yourself. The pain is great, at times seemingly unbearable. Still, it is the lesson you signed up for. From a human perspective so hard to appreciate. The anger, the disappointment, the shame and humiliation; but glory too. We know how it works. I can tell you much, we all can. The plain and simple truth is, mysteries cannot be revealed--it is part of the office I hold. In this comes further confusion--it is but one element of confusion, but it is significant.
I am the energy stream that helps people understand their powers. I gravitate towards the powerful whom are down and need a hand to stand up straight once again. These are my friends and I am grateful for them to (b)ring in the wisdom I offer, and I enjoy dusting them off, and holding them for the while they need it. However, it is not about that they were down, I gravitate towards mental prowess as well, and appreciate those who savor their lessons and journey. I should not need to say that I desire most to work with those who think outside of the box. Do your dance on high, my friend, sing to me your sweet song of victory, Hero or Heroine that you are within your realm. Follow me, or walk beside me if you dare, but you will be tested if you do. Those who walk beside me are welcome to, but must be proven to hold such high positions. I know you have questions about this, but this too is enshrouded in mystery.
Each of you makes an impression in your world. The ocean is large, and you are but a drop. How big is the impression you make? You either influence yourself and your immediate vicinity, or alternatively by care and by careful action, you influence others and the universe as a whole.
In here was a note on demons' relativity to angels: "Angels" require Greater Justice, we "Demons" offset the approach to greater justice that angels take. Birds of a feather (this comment seemed to target that the previous talk of justice implies that we are being watched, or watched over).
Whether you stand beside me or follow, depends on how large a ripple you dare to make. However, you are with me now due to how large of a ripple you may potentially make, so don't sell yourself short. Focus on that which is meaningful now, while you still have the chance to make this incarnation worth your while."
Her transmission ended with a name, a name she wants me to call her by--Corobella--"beautiful choir." The implication here appears to be that she inspires Unity, (the type of Unity so often referred to within Crowley's Thelema as the ultimate goal of our journey). Cor also refers to being at the core/heart of a matter, and in this sense suggests her to be a more complex or more powerful being than some may realize, and offers more considerations beyond this, that I will leave up to you.
(Added in note--at the time this was written, as stated it appears that Corobella has a few apparent meanings. I have since discovered that "coro" may in instances also refer to the Latin word root used in reference to crown, even though missing the n [coron]. Hence it also means beautiful crowned one.)
As was suggested at the opening of this post, it's hard to make sense of what it quickly became. I will return to speaking of Tiamat--as soon as time permits.